Blog of M.

Whenever you aren’t thinking about something on purpose, what kinda stuff does your mind wander to? Or, to phrase another way, what kinda stuff do you daydream about ???

So, I’m seeing something kinda funny being passed around on the interwebz, and by funny, I mean something SO FAKE that its hilarious anyone would think its real.  And yes, before you ask, yes, I’m am 100% sure its a fake. I can’t post what it is, cuz it ain’t “safe for work” or da kidz, but it involves a picture of Tyra Banks.  But, if you float around Tumblr for a while, I’m sure you’ll see the one I mean.

I was gonna end the post at the last sentence, but now I feel the need to rant about propagating ignorance and stupidity.

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN: If you see, or hear, something that is false, and OBVIOUSLY false at that, please don’t become a link in the chain of ignorance. Contrary to what you may think, ignorance is not cute, or sexy, to tolerable, or desirable in any way, shape, or form.

Don’t voluntarily be a dumbass.

First and foremost, I would like to say UFCK YOU for discontinuing your music games.  DJ Hero was an amazing game.  Maybe more people would have gotten into it if the downloadable content wasn’t $8 bucks a pack!!!

I HATE YOU ALL.

Sincerely Yours,

Matt.

First and foremost, I AM NOT HAVING RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS!!! My girlfriend and I just had our first anniversary and we are great. This post is not about us, it just kinda sprang up from reading the Relationship subreddit [ http://www.reddit.com/r/relationships/ ].

DRAMA!!! The posts on this site are worthy of Jerry Springer and Maury Pauvich(sp?). During my perusal, a few posts stuck out to me and I wanted to just talk about one of those for a minute.

Post in question: Hanging out with friends of the opposite gender
[ http://www.reddit.com/r/relationships/comments/fi161/hanging_out_with_opposite_gender_friends/  ]

Ok, so long story short, this guy and girl agreed when they first started dating that it was ok for BOTH of them to hang out with friends of the opposite sex as long as the rules were followed.  The girl wasn’t completely honest and in fact DID NOT like the fact that he would sometimes do that, even though she did the same. This is how the guy finds out; girl goes on business trip and while he is with a friend, she calls. Doesn’t hide the fact that he is with her, because he is following the set guidelines. The call got disconnected and after him trying to call her back, the call goes to voicemail. She breaks up with him over facebook.

1. If the rules of the game change, ALL PLAYERS must be informed. If this girl changes her mind about not wanting the guy to see his female friends, then she should have said something about it and not hidden the truth from him. Wrong on so many levels, because the basis of any good relationship is trust and communication. She seems to lack both where this situation is concerned.

2. Breaking up over facebook is childish. CHILDISH. Especially when you don’t even consult the other person. As a victim of this, the only thing I think is worse is breaking up via text message. Be an adult, (wo)man up, and just be honest and have the conversation.

Since this is a forum and the guy was asking for advice, the almost unanimous consensus from both men and women was that she was totally wrong in the way she handled that situation. I tend to agree.

Bottom line: if you can’t trust the person you love not to love you back, y’all don’t need to be together at all.

any suggestions?

I realize this is random, but one of the biggest selling points of the more advanced smartphones these days is video chat. But who in the blue kool-aid do you video chat with when none of your friends have phones that do video chat???

I always believed in the phrase “never tell someone to do something you wouldn’t do yourself” … most of the time. In this case however, i do; an online associate commented on twitter that she was sad that she hasn’t been inspired to blog about anything, which brought to mind the fact that neither have I. I found a website that has random writing prompts, and after about ten minutes of clicking, I found one that stood out.

What do you think about when you can’t sleep?  Turn it into a piece of writing.

So, here goes my writing. I warn you, it may not make sense; i’m just putting down thoughts on “paper”.

Truth is that the very act of thinking is often times what causes me to lose sleep.  I mostly blog when I’m depressed about something, and since I haven’t been really upset about anything in the past year, I’ve not had anything to blog about. BUT, if you went through here and read some of the stuff I’ve written, I think I tend to be most depressed, and therefore think about, being alone more than anything. In the time between my last relationship and this one, I spent far more nights than any person should being awake, thinking. Thinking about what I did wrong, what I didn’t do right, what she did wrong, lies, half truths, time wasted, time spent together, what it meant to me, what it didn’t seem to mean to her, what it meant for us in the future, was there a future … but more than anything else, why?

Why did it happen to me?
Why did I deserve this?
WHY???

And the emotional roller coaster; at some points, I just wanted it to be done with … other times I wanted nothing more than to lash out verbally … other times it hurt so much, i just felt numb.

So yeah, thinking and feeling all that definitely kept me awake more than a few nights. I’m so thankful that I’m past all that now; and now, when I can’t sleep at night that the only things I think about are pleasant or trivial.